I dont get it,
My ex left me last December because of the problems I was going through and since then she has acted like I left her. Constantly telling me she loves me and it hurts her to know I have an interest in someone else.
What the fuck?! She has a boyfriend, has done since late Febuary and apparantly thats alright but as soon as I find someone I like its not OK at all. She keeps telling me she wants to be with me (even though she has someone) and that knowing I want to be with someone is fucking her up. Like it didnt fuck me up when she left me in a time I was very fucking unstable, like it wasnt fucked up when she dropped me a message telling me she has found someone else and they are "serious".
I dont fucking get it, it really upsets me. I mean shit I ended up on fucking suicide watch in a fucking mental hospital because she left me (yeah I was THAT unstable) and I get that it was my fault, really I do. But to then go about her life saying she wants to be with me and all that shit after shes put me through so much, WHY?!
I know Im not in the best place right now, but I am doing a lot better than I was. But with her saying all of this, fuck it brings back all the shit and it terrifies me!
What the fuck am I meant to do?!
IM.
It
ReplyDeleteseems
you are
in
an
impeccable
rut.
To have
been over
suicide
watch in a
hospital
must have meant
she was
doing something
good.
I
don't
get it
either.
I'd...
I'd
probably
just
forget
her.
She'd
just become
as
normal
and
bland as
mouthwash.
Is it wrong that mouthwash comment made me smile?
ReplyDeleteYour probs right though, its so hard to forget though, we both have the same group of friends so it aint like I can avoid her.
I do wish I could forget a lot of the time though, it would save me a lot pain.
It
ReplyDeleteis not wrong
at
all, lol.
So
forget.
Do everything you
can
to
forget.
Get
away and
out.
Find a
different muse
other than
let
pain be
it
you know?
Yeah I get you, thank you :)
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